So in hoping for a perfect day on the way to Stephanie’s office I got a flat tire. Anxiety was setting in but I kept telling myself that I had no control over these circumstances. Stephanie completely understood despite my disappointment because was plate is so full. The good think was I am so grateful for AAA. In less than one hour I, got a flat, truck arrived, tire changed, & instead of having a 45 minute appointment; I had a six minute appointment.
It was amazing how much I could cover in six minutes. She did make me feel better with the struggles I have been having with my money. I got back to work and put my tithe in the system and I do feel better. Also, she made me see that my mother thinks you need to show your love or your love shows through what you do for people monetarily. I have realized that is why I get comfort in buying people. I think the more I buy the better the friendship is. Which I totally need to rebuke. Realizing that nothing has to do with my presents but more my presence in people’s life. When you truly break it down it is PRESENCE.
My friends probably don’t remember the gift that I got them last year but they do remember when I was there to help them through a crisis, a challenge, the everyday that I am there for them.
This really spoke to me through the book that I just finished {The 100 Things Challenge}. In short, I saw how much happiness he was able to maintain from having limited things and how much he was able to enjoy his interactions without all the “stuff”.
I would not say I am a minimalism but getting to a place of financial freedom has allowed me to carefully review each purchase. I never thought I would come to a place of not finding the thrill in shopping but I feel that I have enough. I think what more could I want—(now I mean this in possessions). I like to change it up now and then at home. If you want to be specific I could use some new barstools. I would love to come up with a solution for my bed but I feel like I have enough.
One of my testimonies is about God’s love and how he showed me the rewards for being a good steward of my money and I realize the dark place when I wasn’t acting as a good steward. Occasionally the guilt tries to resonate about not doing something for someone but I need to realize the benefit of my own securities and all the things I have the ability to review/change by become a good steward.